miss sheylala

I should totally be sleeping now. Instead I'm just analyzing everything. Does everyone do this, or just girls? Like I'm freaking myself out with all the possible scenarios and it's annoying. It's weird, like I know the truth, or I think I do, but I'm sitting here thinking of all the negative situations that could be. So annoying. I suck.

I want to move. Seriously. I am really having a wonderful day everyday lately, but it's just distracting me from what I really want. And that is not to live out the rest of my life in Portsmouth, New Hampshire.

I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure. I feel like I need to not get my hopes so high, but I tend to think it's too late. I feel like a kite that some kid just let go of. I feel so out of control but in control at the same time.

Aye aye ayeeeee.

I cannot wait to go to San Diego. Seriously. 43 days I think? Cannot arrive fast enough.